July 27th, 2009

horrible careful

stuff and nonsense

- I didn't get any special powers from the RAI; I didn't even glow.  Ah, well.

- I am back on hormone medication and have noticed one immediate difference, already I'm not so cold all the time.  (For the last week I was sleeping in sweat pants, socks, a t-shirt, a sweatshirt and usually needed extra blankets.  Last night just a tank top and pajama pants.)  My energy level is still low, but at least I know things are happening.

- The isolation part is really weird.  I don't like saying goodnight to J and then sleeping in different rooms, and the touching restrictions for the first three days were uber-difficult.  Now there can be hugs again and it's better, but it still feels strange - like we moved in together and then immediately had to be less close.  Actually it's been that way a bit all summer because of my surgeries and the being off meds; we've been on really different sleep schedules ever since we were in one place.  There is supposed to be a honeymoon phase in here that we jumped right over.  I'm hoping that as my levels get back to something close to normal we might be able to back up and still have that.

- The other part about needing to stay away from people is how sedentary I've been this week.  I could be going for walks or doing stretches in the apartment but it's a lot easier to just sit.  I've been trying to figure out if the half-marathon I had originally planned to do in Oct is still possible (the summer one was yesterday) and I really can't tell.  It depends a lot on how quickly I can come back.  I ran 8 miles on the Tuesday before the first surgery, I have run a total of 9 miles since then (about two months).

- Rehearsals start a week from tomorrow for my next show.  I'm mostly still in denial about this one.

- On Saturday J moved boxes around and I vacuumed, then we set up all of the new bookshelves we had bought last weekend.  We filled the shelves we have and will need to get at least two and probably three more, which we knew already.  But having books out and on shelves is awesome, even if it's not all of them yet.  It makes this feel more like home.  We're also getting rid of doubles.  That scares me a little even if it does make sense, this living together thing hasn't ever lasted a whole year in my past.  But I am different now, and J is very different from the other guys, and there's no reason to anticipate failure, right?

- In TV land we made a decision to upgrade one series II TiVo, and discontinue the other in favor of the Comcast DVR so that we could (hopefully) get the best of both worlds.  I had BBC America for four days which turns out to be annoying because I now have only four episodes of Torchwood on the DVR.  If I wasn't supposed to get the channel it would have been much kinder to simply not ever give me the channel.  Grrrr.

- I've got two more days of needing to be arms length away from people.  I do need to go to the bank and the post office but that shouldn't be a big deal.  I'm looking forward to restaurants and movies being options again.  Or just cuddling with J on the couch.