November 3rd, 2009



- In the first week of my upcoming show rehearsals, if you count all of the cast members (including the two middle-schoolers who are double cast) as their own people I can have the whole cast in one room at the same time for 5 out of 35 hours.  If you count the double-cast girls as one person (ie. as long as I have one of them I'm good) that number jumps to a whomping 12 hours.  *headdesk*

- And we still don't have a script finalized to start rehearsals with.  On Friday the author said to go back to version A, over the weekend we were pretty sure we could make version B work, and when the Director called on Monday to relay that the author said, oh never mind there's a version C I'm working on.  That you should have tomorrow (that being yesterday so tomorrow was today).  No script has arrived yet, so we wait in limbo for version C.

- Walking into this show without any significant time off since July is probably going to be very bad for my sanity, and my burn out rate.  I'm going to try very hard not to take it out on anyone else though.

- In not-theatre news my Halloween costume turned out really nicely.  In fact, I would like to dress like that more often, Halloween or not.  A friend took photos, as soon as I can snag them from him I'll post one or two (and then stop with the pictures of me already, I promise).

- No trick-or-treaters came to the door while I was home so I have a bag of mini-snickers to get rid of.  In a way that doesn't involve me eating all of them.

- J was gone for the weekend to see his dad, he didn't see the new hair until he got back last night.  But he likes it.

- I've gotten better about exercising again.  I'm not doing anything awe-inspiring, but I'm fitting 30 minutes of something a day more often than not.  I know this is going to fall apart in December when I'll be working two jobs, but one of those jobs will be on my feet and lifting things so I'm thinking that will count.  Now I just have to not let the fact that I can't go to yoga in December convince me to stop going now.

- The family Christmas gathering on my mom's side is happening in January so I can go this year.  Which will be fun, I generally see the Aunts and Uncles on mom's side more often, but some of those cousins I haven't seen in ages.  There's a chance that on that weekend Mom&Dad, J&I, Paul&Kim and all four kids will all be staying at my parent's house.  Wheee!

LJ Idol week 3: Smile

My niece was the first grandchild born on either side of her family. As such, she was the subject of what might have been an overabundance of ‘photo opportunities’. Smile, we’d command her, smiling in the hope that she would mimic us. By the time she was two, Sara had adapted a coping mechanism for photos. If she saw someone with a camera, she would stop what she was doing and eke out a watery, fake smile until her photo was taken. Then she’d resume whatever activity had her engrossed. It became a family game to try to take photos of her un-posed and in her element – smiling or not.

I suppose she’s not alone. In grade school, my brother practiced his smile for hours in front of the mirror before school picture day. There was a small gap between his two front teeth that he didn’t like, and he wanted to be certain no one would be able to see it in his school photo. He succeeded. The tight-lipped smile in his fourth grade picture keeps all of his teeth hidden, but it looks a little plastic all the same.

I wonder how often this happens to us in daily life. The proliferation of digital cameras and camera phones make it possible to capture every single moment of our lives if we choose. It becomes easy to concentrate on what our smile looks like, and to forget the joy of simply smiling.

I know that when I’m laughing or just in a great mood my smile is huge. It takes up more than its fair share of my face and my mouth is a little too open. It looks awful in photos. But why is that even an issue? Why can’t we all just smile with joy and abandon and not care what it looks like?

It’s the sudden, unexpected smiles that are the most fun: the tickle smiles, the punch line smiles, the aced a test, got a compliment, finished a to-do list, I love you smiles. I think we should concentrate more on finding the real smiles in our lives, and worry less about how they’re going to look to everyone else. No one can choose what posterity will think of them, so maybe all we can do is have as much fun as possible and hope that shines through.

@@@This is my entry for week 3 of LJ Idol - the topic is “smile”. I'll post a link to the poll once it is up on Friday. Thank you for reading.@@@