There is some interesting work/life upheaval going in my world right now, begun by a chance meeting with an old co-worker that led to a job interview. J and I are having lots of deep, emotional conversations about the future and our goals both short and long term. Tied into this is stuff about family, about my 'career', about where we want to live, and the fact that every choice has pros and cons and of course there aren't any guarantees. But I think we've come to a decision that is reasonable and makes sense -and after feeling anxious and a little sick to my stomach for days I feel much calmer.
So the end result is that we're planning to move out of the Bay Area next March, if not before. We've vaguely talked about leaving before, house prices here are beyond insane, there are no rent controls in place where we are, and we're not getting any younger. If we want to own a home sooner rather than later, than we need to do what will put us in a position to do that sooner rather than later.
I don't know what will happen with this new job, I have a 2nd interview tomorrow. On the pro side it feels like a good direction for me to move, and I think I'd really enjoy working on a campus. But on the con side it's tough to take a new job when I know I'm leaving in nine months, not that they need to know that, and at least one of the big responsibilities is something I'd be good at and not enjoy. Where I am is not great, but it would be a good and easy place to leave from, and last week my boss mentioned that we have money for training and are there any classes I'd want to take? (when it rains....)
Talking with my parents my mom said something that makes a lot of sense - whatever happens with the new job the universe has apparently decided it's time for us to get out of our current rut and make a change. Yup.
J bought a book on shrubs - not the plants but the old-timey vinegar based drinks. He made a strawberry balsamic shrub that is amazing, and I'm going to make a pomegranite shrub this evening. I am cheating and bought pom juice instead of breaking apart and juicing my own fruit, but I've made my peace with that. Once the shrub is built you can mix it with seltzer or there are some cocktail recipes too. Mmm, fruity summer drinks.