relaxed- Someday I would like to go to the comic book store and spend less than $40. Of course, that really just means I should go more often because I've managed to pick up a few more titles without cutting anything in the last few months. <sigh>
- I have no idea what to get my brother or my sister-in-law for their birthdays next week. (Last year I sent SIL flowers. So it's lame to do that again isn't it? Even though it would be spectacularly easy? Maybe I should send my bro the flowers instead.)
- My interview is Wednesday morning. I'm rather Zen about it right now, but we'll see how anxious I get as the time draws closer.
- My frustration with Sunday's rehearsal was entirely out of proportion with the issues at hand. But still, the show ran 2:56 without an intermission.* Looks like I'm going to have time to knit.
- He said 'I love you too' for the first time in person. \o/
- I'm still catching up on
therealljidol intro posts. I really want to read them all before I write my week 1 entry (topic - saying goodbye). I may be putting the book I just started reading on hold for a while, as it looks as though keeping up with all the entries will fill my casual reading time for the near future.- One of J's best friends just announced that he and his wife are expecting a child in April. I am thrilled and excited for them, and, as seems usual these days, experienced a little pang of longing. I'm 98.8% certain that I don't want to have a child **, but as the biological clock ticks down, and this becomes less a matter of choice I still wonder sometimes.
* The play will get shorter, this first run had a lot of misremembered blocking and line calling, as well as general dumbshittery.
** I know I don't want to raise a child - at least not without drastically changing the life I live right now to be the mother I would want to be, and that tradeoff doesn't balance for me. But I wouldn't mind having a child for someone else. Yes, that is strange.
Aw.
I'm 98.8% certain that I don't want to have a child **, but as the biological clock ticks down, and this becomes less a matter of choice I still wonder sometimes. I'm going through this in the worse way right now. I love my partner, who already has a family and wouldn't like more kids, I can't support a child in an appropriate way but somedays I think I'd like to be pregnent and go though the birthing process.
I'm going through this in the worse way right now. It's good to know its not just me. My boyfriend is also very certain he doesn't want any children, he's happy to be the 'uncle' to his friend's kids. I know I couldn't be the kind of mother I want to be right now, but biology seems to trump brains occasionally.
Maybe you could do your opening lj essay on saying goodbuy to having childeren? or would that be too personal?
Using this for my lj essay is a really interesting idea - it is personal but I don't mind that. Hrmmm - my problem with this topic is I have too many ideas, I plan to sit down and write later tonight and see which one flows the best.
Hopefully, you'll see this. Maybe I'll try to figure out how to use LJ mail.
The book is called Nobodys Mother.
I would totally have a baby for someone else, and offered such services to my sister who is 37 and having a very difficult time getting pregnant.
Aww, he loves you!! That's so exciting!!!
Thanks for the awww - I'm still floating a bit from that.
Oh and an edible bouquet is a great idea, my SIL is very health conscious and eats lots of fruit. Now I have to find out if there's a shop in their area.